college chaos

hi! sorry for disappearing again... i've had a kind of hectic week. on friday i had my college induction day which was great, the campus and everything looks wonderful and as an added bonus there is the loveliest boy in my class (except i'm 17 and he's 24... too old? haha!) so at the end they told us the class started on monday and it was the biggest freak out ever because we weren't planned to move to the city until the following weekend. immediately afterwards we visited the landlord and told him we needed to bump up move in day to that weekend, to which he responded with "yeah, girls, listen... i'm terribly sorry but change of plans, the apartment isn't available anymore" — what? ugh. the whole situation is a mess. so essentially we had to find a new apartment within 2 days, which surprisingly we managed to do except we can't move in until this sunday so this week we've had to travel 4 hours a day back and forth to college. roll on sunday, i say. hopefully i can post some pictures when it's all furnished and decorated, but that'll probably be a few weeks/months down the line.

i apologise for the sporadic posts, i hope to get back to posting normally soon but i'm not sure when everything will be sorted so please bare with me. hope you're all well. <3

♥ k

moving out and moving on

so, surprise surprise i've decided to jack in the abc diet again. i wasn't exactly struggling, i just have a whole lot going on right now and want to keep my mind as free as possible. tomorrow i'm going to see my new apartment for the first time, and man am i excited. i'm 17 and this will be my first real time away from home so i'm obviously incredibly excited but i'm super nervous too. luckily my best friend is moving in with me so i won't have to handle it all alone (i can't even work a washing machine...). honestly i'm just looking forward to being in full control of what food is around me. no family around to comment on what i am or am not eating. i'm not sure if that'll help me control myself better or give me the freedom to binge... let's hope the former.

i'm moving to the city because i'm going to college, and crazily enough i'm going to study professional cookery. it may seem kinda weird but i really do love to prepare food, it's just the eating i hate. but whatever, it's gonna be good. about time i let some new people into my life.

♥ k

fresh beginning

hello! first off, a super duper huge thank you to those of you that continued to follow me throughout my absence. i believe my last post was some time in early april, but i have now deleted all of my old posts to make way for a new start to my blog. i really have no in depth explanation for why i disappeared off of the blogger planet, just that i was attempting to get my eating habits under control. for the first time in a long time i was finally eating in excess of 1200 calories per day and truth be told, i felt a lot healthier but not at all happier. it's become a weird realisation that restricting and counting calories is almost a compulsive need for me, like i can't beat the satisfaction i get from staying within a limit i set myself.

as i am today i think i'm maybe 5 or 6 pounds heavier than i was when i last used this blog, which obviously is disappointing but it's not an end of the world number that i can't undo. i hope by resurrecting this blog i can get back in control of myself. i miss having somebody to rant to and the support everybody offers on here, it's incredible. i've currently just finished day 3 of the abc diet (welcome back to the world of restricting, katy, allow me to push you into the deep end!) which is surprisingly not proven to be as difficult as i expected... yet. even if i don't manage to blog any conversational posts, i'll at least try to do a daily intake. wish me luck.

♥ k