fresh beginning

hello! first off, a super duper huge thank you to those of you that continued to follow me throughout my absence. i believe my last post was some time in early april, but i have now deleted all of my old posts to make way for a new start to my blog. i really have no in depth explanation for why i disappeared off of the blogger planet, just that i was attempting to get my eating habits under control. for the first time in a long time i was finally eating in excess of 1200 calories per day and truth be told, i felt a lot healthier but not at all happier. it's become a weird realisation that restricting and counting calories is almost a compulsive need for me, like i can't beat the satisfaction i get from staying within a limit i set myself.

as i am today i think i'm maybe 5 or 6 pounds heavier than i was when i last used this blog, which obviously is disappointing but it's not an end of the world number that i can't undo. i hope by resurrecting this blog i can get back in control of myself. i miss having somebody to rant to and the support everybody offers on here, it's incredible. i've currently just finished day 3 of the abc diet (welcome back to the world of restricting, katy, allow me to push you into the deep end!) which is surprisingly not proven to be as difficult as i expected... yet. even if i don't manage to blog any conversational posts, i'll at least try to do a daily intake. wish me luck.

♥ k